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Mother and Child: First Toxic Relationship
Even though the relationship with my mother was my first toxic relationship
and, as a teenager, I was angry at her for never giving me a birthday
party and telling me that I was ugly and stupid and teaching me not to
like myself for being Puerto Rican and female, I realize that poverty
and a lack of education had much to do with this. Leaving Puerto Rico
for New York City, where she faced discrimination and had a hard time
speaking the English language, and with a husband that verbally and physically
abused her, I saw that my mother must have been bitter and felt hopeless.
I saw that my mother was a child raising six children in New York City,
where it's generally tough for even those that are very well-educated
and wealthy. Now, when I talk to my mother on the telephone, we have a
reverse role of mother and child. I tell her about my accomplishments
and how I have struggled and achieved and I can hear in her voice that
she's excited and proud. At other times, I tell her that my struggle is
becoming difficult and I feel like giving up and she becomes sad and tells
me how she had a dream where she saw me as a well-known artist and that
I looked beautiful in her dream. This is her way of telling me that she
loves me and not to give up. I realize that my success is her fairy tale
ending to the hard life that she has led.
Soraida Martinez 1993 |
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